I think most
people don’t realize the effects of the words they say. When one speaks, words
sometimes shoot like fire. Blaze after blaze, a cannonball of emotions all put
together in a small word or statement. That’s where the destruction occurs.
Some fires are way too large to put out. Some fires engulf a once sturdy
foundation in flames, and that’s what happened in this situation. Instead of
fire, my best friend’s words shot me, and destroyed, a once believed
unbreakable bond.
If
someone where to tell me, “This friendship is a waste of time. You’re going to
be left lonely again,” I would have stood up and knocked them out. For once in
my life, I made a friend who was an outcast like me. Nicole was someone I could
share my deepest secrets with. I had someone who was hurting about the pains in
their life as much as I was and in that way, we could help heal one another. I
thought she would stick by my side no matter what. No bullies, family problems,
or boys would abolish our friendship; we were practically sisters. That is,
until Tyler came in.
Tyler
was they new boy at Four Corner Church’s youth group. He had bleached out hair,
which he spiked high on his head. She fell for him instantly, and he became my
closest guy friend. Or so I thought. We hung out together practically 24/7 and
I never felt like a third wheel, but as their relationship got stronger, I
became worthless to both of them. When they spoke of how no one else mattered
but each other, they literally meant it. Every day was the same, “I can’t hang…I’m
meeting up with Tyler.”
Soon
enough, I got tired of the loneliness and I messaged Nicole expressing how I
felt about her blowing off our plans constantly. She stated an apology and
things were mended, for a short while. It wasn’t long before Tyler got tired of
me being around; he constantly persuaded Nicole to chose him over me. He told
her I was tearing their relationship apart. It was then I realized how
manipulative and abusive their relationship had become. Tyler constantly tried
to put me down, calling me names and telling me I had zero worth. Although,
when I tried to share these low words to Nicole he would deny every letter. At
this point, I had let go. I gave the couple their space, because I was tired of
getting hurt and ignored.
I
was still a friend to Nicole, whenever she needed it. I kept true to my promise
of always being there for her. Unfortunately, she could not do the same. It was
the summer of 2011 when I logged onto Facebook and the crumbling remains of our
friendship had finally disintegrated into dust. All over my timeline, were
statements mocking me, from both Nicole and Tyler, and a few of their other
friends as well. I was fed up, and immaturely made some rude comments back.
That summer, I lost my best friend. Although, it turned out to be the greatest
thing for me: I didn’t need people with degrading personalities in my life.
Even better? Tyler dumped her in the following month.